Today during work you popped up in my head. Randomly and so suddenly I felt everything. You were there again. Now that I look back on it all, it wasn’t so bad. The time we spent together was actually pretty happy, and all the negativity I believe was me. I was the one afraid of commitment, I was the one afraid to let go, afraid to stay, and afraid to be strong. I couldn’t do any of that for you. But you deserved so much more than what I had to offer. I thought myself into a depression, I thought myself into thinking I wasn’t good enough, or making you happy enough. I can take full responsibility for my actions now, because before I didn’t. I was a coward and I ran away, but I learned and i grew. I’m not gonna say I’m perfect now, and I’m not gonna say I’m the best I can be. But what I can say, is that I’m going to try my best and that’s all i have to offer. I can’t keep handing out these lies and these images of what I could have done, but instead, I’m just gonna fucking do it. I’m just gonna show how much I’ve grown and how much I really can commit to things now instead of just running away from all my damn problems. When I thought of you, I thought of how far I’ve came, which isn’t much, but it sure is a hell of a start.
R.I.P. The 2976 American people that lost their lives on 9/11 and R.I.P. the 48,644 Afghan and 1,690,903 Iraqi and 35000 Pakistani people that paid the ultimate price for a crime they did not commit.
The worst distance between two people is misunderstanding.(via psych-facts)
I drown my thoughts in songs louder than the voices in my head.Jenn Satsune (via ohsatsune)